Part 97: James & Hannah
xx themachine: what did you mean before
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: when?
xx themachine: when you said i was just as bad as victoria
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: nothing
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: i was just being mean tbh
xx themachine: no i mean like
xx themachine: the victoria part
xx themachine: are you guys fighting?
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: no we’re not fighting
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: she’s just
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: i mean YOU know
xx themachine: yeah i know
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: like we’re still friends
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but idk if we can be BEST friends anymore
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: not after NY
xx themachine: you know
xx themachine: i have a theory about her
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: oh yeah?
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: wait
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: i think i know what you’re gonna say
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: and yeah i've thought it too
xx themachine: really??!
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but i don’t think so
xx themachine: no?
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: i feel like she wants to BE me
xx themachine: but she isn't
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but then like
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: she doesn’t want to do the hard parts
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: of being me
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: she thinks i just KNOW things
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: like i don’t have to try
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but i do try
xx themachine: i know you do
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: like she runs into something hard
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: and she just gives up
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but some people don’t
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: like i don’t you don’t etc.
xx themachine: right
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: that’s why i really came back from ny
xx themachine: wait what is?
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: bc i realized
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: i was kinda running away from my problems
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: and that’s not healthy
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: it’s much better to actually like
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: face them head on
xx themachine: true
xx themachine: i agree with that
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: and besides like
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: sometimes you don't have a choice
xx themachine: sure right
XXxSuicidesXGraceXXx: but sometimes you do
xx themachine: of course
The conversation could die here. Conversations died when you started saying things so obvious no one could disagree. But he would save it, revive it. He would find something - not the thing, it wasn't the right moment for that yet - something he had squirreled away in that part of his mind, some image, some memory; something to turn them away from Victoria, point them in the direction of unity.
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The conversation could die here. Conversations died when you started saying things so obvious no one could disagree. But he would save it, revive it. He would find something - not the thing, it wasn't the right moment for that yet - something he had squirreled away in that part of his mind, some image, some memory; something to turn them away from Victoria, point them in the direction of unity.