Part 95: James & Hannah
xx themachine: my sister thinks smiling is mind control
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao what?
xx themachine: idk thats what she was just saying
xx themachine: like she was talking abt some assembly
xx themachine: where they taught them abt like
xx themachine: ~*positive thinking*~
xx themachine: and how smiling makes you happy
xx themachine: and called it mind control
xx themachine: is that even true btw
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i think so
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk
xx themachine: like i remember learning abt it too
xx themachine: but i wonder if its like one of those
xx themachine: taste bud map kinda things
xx themachine: where we just pretend it works
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: oh idk maybe
xx themachine: everything ok?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah sorry
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: just got a bunch of stuff going on rn
xx themachine: oh okay
xx themachine: is it like
xx themachine: mom stuff?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao no shes not home
xx themachine: so what is it?
xx themachine: i mean you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to
xx themachine: but if you do
xx themachine: i’m here
xx themachine: and i’ll listen :)
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao no it's not like that
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: nothing ~*dramatic*~
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i’m just kinda busy
xx themachine: with what?
xx themachine: (just curious)
xx themachine: (you can tell me to f off)
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao no its ok
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i probably need a break from it anyway
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so this is kinda embarrassing
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but
xx themachine: OOH im intrigued
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao its actually wicked lame
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: youre like the only one i could tell this to
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: except victoria
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so lately ive gotten kinda deep into
xx themachine: omg what?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: the obm message boards
xx themachine: oh….
xx themachine: i thought it was gonna be juicier
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: that’s why it’s embarrassing
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: because it’s so lame
xx themachine: ok sure i get that
xx themachine: so you just talk about OBM on there?
xx themachine: with other fans?
xx themachine: what do they call you guys again?
xx themachine: the company?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao no one actually uses that anymore
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: well old people maybe
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but with the boards its like
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk its barely even about obm anymore
xx themachine: what is it about?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: it’s super complicated idk
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: hard to explain
xx themachine: try me
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: wait hold on one sec brb
xx themachine: ok
xx themachine: …..
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: sorry
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: im just trying to like
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: manage things on there
xx themachine: wait so what’s going on?
xx themachine: explain it to me
xx themachine: i want to know!!
xx themachine: plus you said you needed a break
xx themachine: and then i have something to tell you after
xx themachine: remember?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you can go first
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: what was it?
xx themachine: ok so like
xx themachine: remember how you always say growing horizons makes no sense?
xx themachine: well i found out where it comes from
xx themachine: it’s from this poem
xx themachine: i found this poster in the library today
xx themachine: that’s where i was during lunch
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: oh yeah ive seen that
xx themachine: you have?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah
xx themachine: doesn’t it suck?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk i guess
xx themachine: well i thought it did
xx themachine: and i didn’t know it came from a poem
xx themachine: how come you never told me????
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you didnt ask?
xx themachine: wtf how am i supposed to ask about that?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk man
xx themachine: hannah
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: what?
xx themachine: what’s going on?
xx themachine: are you sure everything’s okay?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah i told you already i’m just busy
xx themachine: with the boards?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah
xx themachine: you realize you’re paying more attention to that
xx themachine: than the real person trying to talk to you?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: these are real people too dude
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: just bc they’re on the other end of a computer screen
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: doesn’t mean they’re not real
xx themachine: but you don’t know them
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao you don’t know who i know
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: plus like
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i had to find SOMETHING to do
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: after you abandoned me
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: for LITERALLY no reason
xx themachine: i abandoned YOU?
xx themachine: you literally went to NY for four days
xx themachine: and didn’t tell anyone
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah but that wasn’t about you
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: that was about me
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and what i needed to do
xx themachine: nothings ever about me for you, is it?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: whats that supposed to mean?
xx themachine: nothing
xx themachine: forget i said it
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i can’t
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: tell me
xx themachine: no nevermind
xx themachine: what’s happening on the boards?!
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you know what i was wrong
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i thought you’d understand
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but you’re just as bad as victoria
xx themachine: lmao no i’m not
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: tell me what you meant then
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: prove it
xx themachine: no i don’t have to prove myself to you
xx themachine: besides it didn’t mean anything
xx themachine: i was just kinda annoyed
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: nothing ever means nothing, james
xx themachine: i thought nothing always meant nothing
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you know what i mean
xx themachine: do i?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i dont know, do you?
xx themachine: what are we even talking about?
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i have no idea
xx themachine: good me neither
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao
xx themachine: but at least we’re talking
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah i guess
xx themachine: anyway
xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah anyway