Part 86: James & Hannah

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: omg james thank GOD you’re online

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: someone i can actually talk to

xx themachine: no victoria???

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: nah she got her computer taken away

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: plus ive been with her all day

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i need a break lmao

xx themachine: why’d she get her computer taken away??

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk, her mom i guess

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: probably bc she got detention

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but she has cancer so

xx themachine: wait, who has cancer?

xx themachine: victoria???

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: no, her mom

xx themachine: since when?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk exactly

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: a while probably

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: doesn’t like everybody have SOME cancer

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and it only sometimes becomes like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: *~A Problem~*

xx themachine: maybe

xx themachine: that sounds familiar

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but yeah so you can’t really argue w her

xx themachine: that makes sense

xx themachine: soooo how’s mr brown???

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: omg hes SO awkward

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: he kept trying to like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: ~bond~ w me about ny

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: like i guess he has friends from college who live there?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and he visits them or whatever

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: like ok cool it’s a big city

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lots of people go there

xx themachine: i hate new york tbh

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: have you ever been there?

xx themachine: no but just like

xx themachine: the idea of it

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: the idea and how it actually is are totally different though

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: like everyone thinks it’s all bright and shiny times square everywhere

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but where my cousin lives in brooklyn it’s actually super like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: gritty and kinda ugly

xx themachine: no i know that

xx themachine: thats what i dont like though

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: oh well yeah i guess it’s not for everyone

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i had fun though

xx themachine: i’m glad

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i argued with a real christian

xx themachine: really?

xx themachine: what’d he say?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: omg he was like speechless

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: he kept saying you’re taking that out of context

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so i was like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: ok so put it IN context

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and he was like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: o_O

xx themachine: hahaha

xx themachine: who was he?

xx themachine: just like some rando on the street or???

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: no he knocked on the door of charlies apt

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and i was bored so i let him in

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and we debated

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and i totally WON

xx themachine: omg that’s so awesome

xx themachine: i’m so jealous

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i wish you were there

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so whatd i miss around here?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: besides victoria yelling at a teacher

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: are you and sean friends again?

xx themachine: ehh nothing really

xx themachine: it’s been pretty boring without you tbh

xx themachine: and i'm not sure about me and sean

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: awww james that’s sweet

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i’ll be honest too

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: new york was kinda boring too

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: that’s why i really came back

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: my mom didn’t make me

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i just like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: did everything i wanted to do there

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you know?

xx themachine: sure i get that

xx themachine: why’d you go in the first place?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: hmm a bunch of reasons

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: you’re the only one i can tell this to

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: bc i know you’ll actually listen

xx themachine: of course

xx themachine: that’s what i’m here for haha

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so obv i’ve always loved ny

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and used to go there as a kid and stuff

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but this time i guess it was like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: after going to the obm concert

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and being around victoria’s sister

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: it just felt like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: those are the sort of people i’m SUPPOSED to be around

xx themachine: i thought victoria’s sister sucked?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: she does

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: her sucking is different than the way people at school suck

xx themachine: hmm okay

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and then with my mom that night

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and i was in a weird mood that whole day anyway

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk who even knows why people do things

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: we just kinda

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: do them?

xx themachine: you think?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: and then make up the reasons after

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i feel like i always know why i’m doing something

xx themachine: really?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: maybe it’s just me then

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: idk but anyway

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: it just seemed like i HAD to go

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so i did

xx themachine: and your cousin didn’t mind?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: nah he was fine

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: but it was just like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: why am i sitting around waiting

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: for my real life to start

xx themachine: i feel like a lot of life is just sitting around waiting

xx themachine: and sometimes the waiting ends up being better

xx themachine: than the thing you were waiting for

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: like what?

xx themachine: like anything

xx themachine: hey so

xx themachine: remind me later 

xx themachine: i have something i need to tell you

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: uh, okay. but why not tell me now???

xx themachine: i can’t right now

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx:.......

xx themachine: like i’m gonna have to get off soon

xx themachine: and it's not like a quick thing

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: why?

xx themachine: bc susans gonna be home and like

xx themachine: it’s this whole thing

xx themachine: i don’t feel like getting into it

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: since when does susan care if you’re online?

xx themachine: she doesn’t it’s just like

xx themachine: i can’t be on when she gets home

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: wtf that makes NO sense

xx themachine: i can’t really explain it but yeah

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: so you’re gonna leave me alone?

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: after i’ve been alone ALL week?

xx themachine: dude you’re literally never alone

xx themachine: you were surrounded by people literally all day

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: yeah but like

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: i was still ALONE

xx themachine: sure okay

xx themachine: maybe you’ll get what i mean about waiting

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: ughhhh jaaaaameeesssssss

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: what am i supposed to doooooo

xx themachine: im sorry!! i’ll try to come back on later if i can

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: hjslhfkjlhsfd fuck you

xx themachine: love you too

xXXSuicidesXGraceXXx: lmao bye